Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..:)
Hmm..now is the mid-campaign of my journey as the Regent of the Nuqaba Council..And, you know what, the story gets more interesting than ever..:)..Yupp, these problems usually only act as mere flies for me but the impact and the scar is permanent and visible eternally etching on my body.
You see, nowadays people neglect reading...Once I read an article which narrated to me that an average Malaysians read only 1 book per year..So, the wicked truth, is most of Malaysians didn't know too many things..Their only resources for informations and current issues is Television, which nowadays deliver too many slenders and useless facts. So, the problem is I has been accused as a heresy and blasphemer just I read a bit extra than others. Talking about Illuminati, Religion Comparison is not a sin, it widens your mind, not to just think linearly and chained by our society ridiculous taboo!
I am a seeker, I do not believe easily, I want proof to emboldens and bolster my faith, so I search the answer by reading Ahmed Deedat books which clearly pointed that this RELIGION is the truth! And, I have been blamed for this, for searching the truth. Wallahi, if Allah did not command us clearly in the Quran to SPREAD the TRUTH to everyone, I will taped my mouth and sit in the corner.Watching and laughing how stupid the humans are. But, again, I were in the "Devil's" side, because I want to preach the truth.
But, then I brushed this puny problem, thinking that the road of dakwah is not the red carpet of the Oscar Academy. I must stop hoping for a return or reward for this matter. Yes, I have to learn to accept and forgive. To return spit with flower. And to reply vulgar words with the words of Allah. Aye, it is extremely easy to pick on me, because of my physical inferiority, but I simply do not care.
The grand list of problems and trial continued with the word of "radical". It seemed that the particular word is growing notoriously and used widely by the society, with the sole purpose to object and reject any out-of-box thinking style. It seemed that human are growing wise for using such complex word, but the fact is they are growing stupid more because did not understand the true definition and application for this word. When a man step on forward, sow some cool and inspiring videos about Syria and Palestine, give a brief speech to boycott or resist the thinking war that distiinctly occuring now, people call them RADICAL. When a boy sit in a circle, talk about the strict and complex Sufistics teaching about tazkiyatun-nafs and celebacy, you may call them RADICAL in my society. Step forward, kindly ask the public to obey the teachings of Islam by praying, and you will be called RADICAL. I say to you, what kind of madness is this? I am getting blamed for the rude and unacceptable manner of the public, yet I opened my small maw to ask them kindly to be nice, I am labelled as RADICAL?
Please, I am begging to any who are concern, to lease me from this forsaken bind, if they think my way is too RADICAL et cetera. But, please don't let me suffer holding this responsibilities while my power has been constricted into a level of serious suffocation, while all of you are gossiping on my back. Call me Wahabi, Shiite or worst blasphemer.
I hoped that Allah wil not call me home in this period, as I am ashamed of Him. I were given this responsibilities but I am impotence to fully implements the Islamic values For now, the best I can do is to continue the technical programme. Malam Kesenian Islam is around the corner..I am the second Sultan Abdul Hamid II...About love.
Love is subjective and complex matter. I strongly believe that this life is too short for this. I am a Sufictics philisophy lover, and I have to be steadfast in this. The syeikh clearly warned that there will be an age that knowledge will no longer an option, the age of scholars and clerics has died.And, the age is now. I have nothing to offer but my minute knowledge, and the society would not but this as physical traits is the priority now.
So, I believe that I am clean in this matter. I have hear that some of the lovebirds are becoming daring, and I hoped they will repent before witnessing my wrath. I have labored, scouting every night, spending my last ounces o energy to prevent these lovebirds from commiting any foolish acts. The names are in my hands, all of them..I acquired the names not only from human, but the walls, the plants are whispering their names..:)..If you know what I meant..:P..Wassalam
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